I hope this reaches you in the best of health/imaan......
Take a moment and picture yourself in this: It is 10:44 PM, you just took along warm shower and are getting ready to sleep. There is no struggle, sleep comes to you so fast as if you were tired and needed it the most. Your soul leaves your body, you're lying there asleep----that soul of yours was supposed be back by morning but it never returns. You're no longer sleeping, you breathed your last and watching the journey of your soul.
It travels through the heavens with a terrible smell. Your soul is fearful and you now see what you've been warned of. You try to plead with the angles, you try to ask for a second chance---but to no avail. You reach the top heaven in which you're given your verdict. You're found guilty on all accounts. Your life flashes through your eyes..... you remember the hours you spent in the club, the days you were disrespectful and mean to your parents, the prayers you have missed. You remember the time you wasted running after Dunya, you remember saying "insha'Allah one day I will start following Islam." You remember all the excuses you gave on why you don't follow Allah's commands. You remember saying "yea, when I get old, I will be a better Muslim." You remember sometimes making fun of those who followed Islam, you remember how you mocked their hijab or their beard. You remember all the hearts you have broken--destroying the real meaning of love.You start to tremble because now it is all there before your eyes and what you see is not good.
You know you're guilty on all accounts and that you were not judged unjustly. You remember the verses of the Qur'an... how they warned you of this day. Your eyes begin to swell with tears, you know what is going to come next, but you cannot bear the thought of it. You cry loud, you plead, you ask for forgiveness----nothing seems to work. Your soul is sent back to the grave, you now hear the foot steps of those who buried you. You try to scream, but they don't hear you. Your companion comes to visit----dressed in rough clothes, dark and scary looking. You ask "who are you." He utters the most dreadful response which is "I am your deed...I am what you have done in the world." You lie there in the dark hole with no hope or a second chance.
Now imagine your life flashed right in front of you....every moment that you have lived on screen, your deepest secrets out in the open. Imagine the feeling that would go through your heart, the thoughts in your mind---imagine yourself standing before the king of the kings. Imagine hell and heaven right before your eyes, everything clearer to you than they have ever been! Imagine the agony of not knowing whether or not you will receive your book in the right hand or the left. Imagine seeing the angles in their truest form, imagine YOU on the day of judgement. Your heart beat increases, all you ask for is a second chance---you say "Oh my Lord return me back so I may do good." You repeat this time and time again crying-------
BUT wait-----you realize it was just a dream! You wake up in the middle of the night--catching your breath. You whisper "Alhamdullah" because now, after being awakened, you see your second chance. You're living NOW, TODAY, why not start following your deen? Why not change yourself and paint a better eternal life through your good deeds today while you still have a chance? Why wait for tomorrow when you know that it may never come. Lets start living in the moment---lets start our journey now and see where it takes us. Go ahead, pick up that Qur'an on the shelf, prepare to go the Jumma Salah this Friday---yes YOU get up and start fresh by repenting to Allah while you still have the chance.
REMEMBER YOU ONLY HAVE TODAY----TOMORROW IS NOT A GUARANTEE!!
